After a very fun day and evening sipping cocktails in the sunshine with friends, I kissed a boy. Okay he wasn't actually a boy. He was a cute 37 year old single dad. But I sure felt like a young girl again; excited by the attention and touch of a cute boy.
As many of my girlfriends have told me, I've just needed to get over the hump (no pun intended, well maybe a little). It has been almost 2 years since I've shared any intimate moments with another person (Oh My God that's a long time), and that person was my husband. It has been over 9 years since I've been with anyone besides my husband. So this is all a very big deal. However the thought of ever smooching or going on a date or having sex again, has been shrugged off before I ever got too deep into daydreaming. In the back of my head I guess I know that as a somewhat young and fabulous woman I most likely will find Mr. Right at some point in the distant future. I've decided that perhaps just a cute boy to smooch (or a Mr. Right Now) is perfect and needed for the present. Afterall, I'm still going through my divorce and dedicating most of my time to raising my son, working and looking for a place of our own. I'm not too interested in getting into a relationship anytime soon. A little no-strings-attached adult time on the other hand, might just fit the bill.
I also think I needed that kiss (and subsequent kisses that went into the wee hours of the morning) as much as I needed a job. Sure it doesn't feed my son or pay any bills, but it did about as much for my self esteem. I'm starting to remember, that being a mom is part of who I am, but not everything. There is a sexy smart confident woman who still resides within me and that woman has remembered how wonderful the company of a man can be.
I must also tell you that this all happened (as well as being asked out on a date by another single dad), within days of getting and reading Rachel Sarah's book "Single Mama Seeking: Playdates, Blind dates and other Dispatches from the Dating World". Thank you Rachel! I recommend this read for all single moms needing to remember the woman within and looking for love and/ or a little loving. :)
I'm happy to say I'm over the hump!